myrtle beach


trying different perspectives and playing around with the rule of thirds.

post grad life


life lately has felt a lot like how i feel in airports - "hurry up and wait". 

since finishing my finals (and undergrad) i've taken a trip to south carolina, had job interviews, caught up with friends, tackled my "things to do after finals to do list". yet in between all the chaos and business of this season of life has also been a lot of boredom, confusion, and the ever so popular question.... what next? 

what are you going to do now? do you have a job yet? are you looking for a job? do you know what you want to do? are you moving out? are you getting a car? are you getting your masters? what have you been up to since finals? 

the list could go on, but this is just a sample of questions that are asked daily. if not multiple times a day. i swear the minute i made my last mark on my last final, the questions started to roll in. although if i'm being honest, they were present even earlier. 

i'm sure this post grad angst is nothing new, and i am only one of thousands that are facing the same questions, all trying to figure out what their next move is going to be. 

i always like to think that i've had a sense of "what's next" for me. so this feeling is a bit of a first. i don't really have a plan. i don't know what i want to do. i don't know if i want to get my masters. i have no idea where i want to live. for the first time in a really long time, if ever, i have absolutely no idea what my next move will be. 

and while some may say that it is such an exciting time in my life, the world is my oyster, etc. i don't have the same optimistic feeling.

when people ask what i'm up to now, i give them the same rehearsed answer that i've practiced to sound 'good', or at least to sound like what i think people want to hear. 

if i was being honest i would say i have absolutely no idea what i want to do next. for the first time in a long time i have no idea what i want to do or who i want to be, and i feel like i don't even have a second to catch my breath and really figure it out. 

instead i say i'm so happy to be done, have some interview lined up, and hope to go into something in long-term care or physio related.

have you ever rewatched one of your favourite movies and skipped through all the boring parts and scenes you didn't like so that you could hurry up and enjoy your favourite part. i kind of wish i could do that with this stage of my life now - fast forward to "the good part". because right now life just feels like a hot mess that is best skipped over......